To apply the work directly… And let go of validation…
Is tricky.
To where no one knows who I am and how I’ve applied and the work that I’m doing?
I feel so clearly from the purity of my being my desire to be in a group like nst and to be directly reflected by Benthino.
There is still a pain I have not fully seen through.
And that trying to understand might be what is holding me back. To instead embody that understanding.
But then I would have to let go of validation.
its such a painful ravenous desire, to Atleast be included and acknowledged. What is it?
