I keep having Orgams of epic unbearable infiniteness, unable to stop myself from enjoying it and going there all the way, and as try to rest in it and let it go.. I still feel subtle allergic reactions of wanting to push it away. Like it’s too overwhelming and I just want to forget it the next minute. Because it is too much to contain and can get in the way if I dotn let it go. Im working on easing myself into and out of the orgasm without imbalancing myself and losing track of the steps. It’s still super tricky and I find little attachments… Little sour allergic feelings… Overwhelm… Seeking something to ground myself in and focus elsewhere.
Constantly this is the case though. From one orgasm to the next… Continually trading one reality for another as soon as it wears out or completes itself. But how can it complete itself better without all these lingering attachments and sour feelings? It’s very subtle but I feel it all.
OMG update! I need Earth I literally had several intense physical orgasms it seems to me that it needs to be released on all of my levels and physically like I like it feels bad unless I can physically it somehow