Its helpful and beautiful at times to allow myself to bliss out on the visions and dreams and feel all my destiny state essence, but I can over do it. (indulging fantasy has been a tendency for as long as I can rememeber)
I notice when it’s properly balanced, like a bow and arrow, with just enough tention of fantasy, close enough to the actual reality of the moment now, not too far ahead, and applied to actual steps that it feels really good and can be sustained/expanded/deepend/further actualized.
I notice when I visualize too far ahead it can feel sour. And I notice if I pay attention too much to others viewing me rather than the being of it, it also starts to feel very sour (very interesting).) And especially when I milk it for too long, it feels like I just ate too much candy and I feel sick and I want to get as far away from the fantasy as possible.
And if I am not careful, paying careful attention, it feels abrupt when I come back down, disorienting and distracting… Imbalanced, and I do not make enough proper progress on the actualizing of that destiny state.
But other times swimming in the visuals and the feeling of the dreams for hours feels so amazing and holistic, like a beautiful orgasm of destiny that then gently comes back down to peace of emptiness, without the need to get away from it.
Because if I pay attention properly and let go as feels good, the bliss melts like an expansive lake into the present moment, and the bliss feels completed.
I desire to deepen the destiny state and actualize it further. I want to further refine this balance between the romance(essence/bliss/dream) and the work(actualization.)
Refining when to lean in, and when to let go.