And taking that shift it took away the space that I needed to ground and reset myself in essence and actually it took me off point to the essence what I want to be doing is honing closer and closer as possible to the essence and stay on point to the essence and cut away all that is not that and get as close as possible to that and compounding and that so that would be space to reset myself plenty of time no stress plenty of essence before it runs out then pole dancing then dancing then filmmaking things that are in essence if I go too far off the essence then I’m having a problem and it’s not okay anymore I’m here to be precise and streamlined as fuck it’s not okay no matter what I want to make bold high-level choices because I felt yesterday the Quantum Leap reality of a cinematographer director and how powerful that is I need to clear space for that give me a clear fucking space for that I need clear as fucking space for that I need to ground for that I need a foundation for that I cannot be running out to go to shifts and I’m feeling discombobulated chasing after the essence that’s not okay and it does matter and it is a big deal and I’m here to correct that and not do shifts anymore it is done
