Literally actually as in the true nature of existence as in I have directly realized this as a direct indisputable insight and therefore can without a doubt say the following, but I can actually flip every feeling of disappointment into the opposite and instantly give myself the desire the essence of the desire and the opposite but it also goes to mean that literally anything that feels bad is quote wrong or an inaccurate perception that I can also immediately flip to its opposite and give myself the essence of and we perceive accordingly and holy fucking shit I see this right before my eyes almost afraid to put it into words except I want to because I want to remember this and be like holy shit I am literally in perfection and there’s nothing to dispute it otherwise because I can see through to the truth.

Oh but maybe I lose it by writing it. Oh wait maybe I integrate it by writing. Hahaha oh yeah wait I’m free of conditions.