Was my relationship with you entirely my own delusion,? Was the source romance creative partnership life partner not the reality but I was imagining it to be? Was it ever a potential or ever the case? Or was it all just a delusion?
Or was it a shared reality that wasn’t being lived up to? Was this even a reality that crossed your mind or was it only my own perception and desire that you did not share?
Maybe you weren’t that. Maybe I have entirely inaccurate perception of you and the relationship. Maybe I don’t have the big picture at all. For all I know maybe you think I’m entirely crazy, you don’t take me seriously whatsoever, you don’t care at all, and you were just playing along but none of it was real.
It was real to me, but if it wasn’t real to you, then it wasn’t actually reciprocally holistically real.
I really don’t know. Your lack of communication makes me question you and your intentions entirely. Makes me question if you ever really Cared at all.