As I’m falling deeply in love, it still feels like the infinity I seek is out of reach. I desire to drop deeper into God mode, mutually with another being, that can even speak it into words that makes sense of our whole experience… The various mind fucking intellectual spiritual pattern connections that I shared with you…
And the desire is here and it feels out of reach. Like it’s missing.
There is a pain… I so desire this kind of intimacy with you.
I have no choice but to let it go.
I want to fall in love with you. I want to share recirpircal source connection with you.
And you are still gone.
It’s like this third entity of connection we created together…it feels like it’s dying…
I mourn it’s death. And I fear that I literally don’t have access to this kind of connection without you. Joe, we can laugh and share and fall in love. Why did you leave? Life is too short to pass up such amazing potential. What possible perspective could you have that would make you decide to walk away? And why can’t you communicate it?