The Infinite Perspectives of an Open-Centered Being
I don’t have certainty. So any which way would be fine. And even when I do choose a choice, I experience opposing perspectives simultaneously as to why I want the other choice. Every time. It used to be painful, when I assumed wrongness. Now I assume neutrality, and that any one perspective is about usefulness, […]
Perpetually Beyond
I’ve been having weird psychedelic experinces on the regular (without psychedelics) that worry me. It’s gotten weirder in the last couple months and my natural state is not like anything I remember it being like. I don’t remember my experince ever being like this consistently. So transparent and beyond… I’m not sure if this is […]
Fear of Contextlessness
I can barely drive. I have no spatial sense. Something is driving but it’s not me.I can barely talk.No one is there.I feel so much all encompassing being swallowing every appearance.With zero to no differentiation.Any little piece of different that arises is quickly transcended into the soup.It envelopes everything and I’m fighting to exist.To find […]
Making Love to the Absolute: My Eternal Orgasm
I have moments of lightning insight, blissful dreams, unbearable desire…total orgasms of my calling essence coming together, emotional resonance from head to toe, so deep and pure and infinitely loving. I can’t help but burst into tears of ecstacy. Rest in the subtley of it, I caution myself, so as not to blow myself out […]
Desire Behind NLS and NST: An Accelerative Collective Counsiousness
I do desire to interact with Benthino and beings of his caliber and beyond, but Jonathon says I will know when I am ready when it no longer matters. So I am experiencing this entirely new perspective and paradigm: that I am my own being carving my own path empowered in myself doing it for […]
Purifying my attachment with Benthino
I’m having this painful psycedelic experience, naturally… This feeling I’m bringing awareness to. How can I put into words? It’s getting more difficult nowadays that I’m stripping away story. But let me try. I am aware of this heart-aching pain. That feels like the following story and questions … what if my connection with benthino […]
Purify Distortion to all I Desire
I feel the purity of my desire.And feel all phenomena seemingly in contrast… From the distance of the sun.And when I can’t see from beyond, and I am stuck under the veil…I dive into the crevices with my magnifying glass. Feel every inch of contrast.Isolate the pain. Feel it. In bite sized chunks I can […]
What is subtle?
Subtle is before. Subtle is in the background. Subtle doesn’t struggle. Or force. Or resist. Subtle is free and perfect and before all compartments. SUBLTE IS NON-FORCE SUBLTE IS ALLOWING SUBTLE IS BALANCE SUBLTE ALLOWS for harmonization Subtle is before everything. Sublte allows for clarity and understanding. Sublte is non-compensatory Sublte is all-possibleness Sublte is […]
Transparent to the Essence
To become more transparent to the essence, Is to become familiar with something as formless as consciousness. To become like the container, Is to transcend the components of the container.You allow your experience to be as it is.And there may be some time of not self confusion, being lost in the Compartment and blaming the […]
Not Issing into Terrifying Black Holes With a Lover
It happened like this: I asked what I wanted. Reality responded that it wanted to know what isn’t? If everything is then what isn’t. It felt like, how can I truly see what is and choose what I want if I’m not even clear on what isn’t. All the sudden I was thrown into this […]