heart over mind and the magic of a thousand disney movies
Magic of a thousand Disney movies watches through me when I see him again. I feel overwhelming mystical magneticism, my heart is exploding with joy and wonder. I wake up this morning in an alternate universe. Nothing feels the same… Everything is part of a surreal vibe of the msot heavenly heaven. I fall so […]
Free Dives, Flow States, and the vast unknown
I have no idea where he is taking me. I am suspended in space and time, following his intricate lead without a single thought. It is all so fast I don’t have a millisecond to think, or else I fall out of the dance. It feels like free diving out of an airplane, or jumping […]
Falling in Love When the Surreal Is Real
I slip into a lucid dream with him so easy. He plugs into the goddess that I feel in my most peak states of resonance: all the love and affection, beautiful flavors of myself, bliss, mystical visions and superpowers I’ve only attributed to psychedelics, movies, fantasy, or freak glimpses beyond the veil… I feel with […]
Let’s Fall In Love together
I started falling profoundly in love with everyone. The intimacy runs so deep I feel no separation and I feel all the essence of my most playful Divine juicy affectionate loving self. I feel so seen and free and it’s absolutely delicious. It started significantly with one person, but then I noticed it with another […]
Heartbreak Transcendence: Falling In Love to Beyond
There it was again: all I desire… Every peak insight, every moment of falling in love.Every juicy sexy dance, side splitting laugh, and rush of adventure. Every trauma and it’s healing.Every lover that melts my heart and moves perfect with my body, playing mystical God to my mystical Goddess. The ideal romantic movie scene. All […]
Evolving the Nature I’m Working With
Do you… Need to focus and do 5 things at once in order for you to feel at peace and be able to listen on what your friend is saying to you? That your focus is way in the background rather the foreground, and that focus works best when you don’t try to focus and […]
Including Not-Desire in Desire
I lay in bed all night never so desirous in my entire life. The imprisonment of unrealized desire, an experince I missed because I over thought it, tortures me awake. A union that could have been… I feel the aching potential gratification in my heart and body. I doubted a perfect flow of desire. I […]
The Twilight Zone: Opposites are True=Freedom from Assumption
The full is Empty and the Empty is full! I’m having an experience where I discovered the belfy, where I can shut myself away from everything like 3 doors up in an attic of my house because I have been struggling focusing with my parents around and getting super angry. But I sat in the […]
Desire: Satisfying and I Want More
I just realized a nuance of desire that’s been throwing me off balance. When the nuance is just right, it feels amazing. It’s painful when it’s too much, and ineffective when too little: It’s the “not there yet” tinge/flavor. When it’s overemphasized, it’s painful. When it’s less so, I feel a sort of complacency that […]
Too much beyond, can’t feel myself for two months now
I’m very serious this subtlification and Beyondness this is happening perpetually daily, like my consciousness is like an air balloon that rises above and beyond everything to the point it’s like nothing is there, and some days it’s so bad I feel like there’s literally no world I can’t feel it I can’t connect to […]