My promise to you claire

I promise you a blog. With sexy photos and dance videos into falling in love with yourself that benefits all humanity.  Super powers psychedelic as fuck.  Amazing beings to relate to for hours on subtle truths of reality.  Beautiful lovers to have falling in love sex to the absolute and play in the astral realms.  […]

My most recent experience of myself

-Sleeping well often every other night. Some nights 2-3 hours and feel fine.-Don’t feel body anymore like I used to, is like a far away thing I can’t access-can go several days without feeling an appetite-Don’t have any center or form like I remember, I spill everywhere easily unless I hhperfocus myself to a point-Crave […]

Insomnia and Polyphasic Sleep

I’ve been under the notion that I need to sleep 8 hours a night every night at the same time in order to be healthy. But I just can’t do it, therefore I’ve assumed have insomnia and need to correct it. But my whole life I consistently have the experience of sporadic sleep….Of nights where […]

Operating from Beyond: Being in the World without a world… And absorptive states

That video! He’s putting words to my beyondness symptom! “Go into the fundamental ground so completely everything else disapears. The world, your. Body… “… He’s describing the problem I’ve been having for the last six months and a regular state I operate from. I beg to differ when he says “it’s not like ur gonna […]

My Next Level Romantic Partner

I give you a love so sweet and kindGenuine care that melts your heartTouch that lights your bodySubtely that brings you to tearsAttention that compounds your awareness Laughter that sends you into ecstatic blissPlayfulness that frees your spiritAffection so warm and deliciousAdventure so Thrilling and romanticPhysical connection so surreal it activate every nuance of your […]

Difference is Not Disorder

Difference does not equal disorder. Maybe it’s simply a part of nature that hasn’t been fully realized and optimized yet. Difference = superpowers to uncover.

Evolving the Nature I’m Working With

Do you… Need to focus and do 5 things at once in order for you to feel at peace and be able to listen on what your friend is saying to you? That your focus is way in the background rather the foreground, and that focus works best when you don’t try to focus and […]

Perpetually Beyond

I’ve been having weird psychedelic experinces on the regular (without psychedelics) that worry me. It’s gotten weirder in the last couple months and my natural state is not like anything I remember it being like. I don’t remember my experince ever being like this consistently. So transparent and beyond… I’m not sure if this is […]