The Parallel Realities of Joe VS Not Joe

In one parallel reality, I never made that call and uttered the word ‘gaslight’ to you. Instead, we embarked on a journey to create an extraordinary legacy together—a path filled with profound insights, invaluable learning, and experiences that brought us closer to the source. On another path, you decided that my actions had deeply wounded […]

Dear Joe, our reunion is inevitable

I am ridiculously madly in love with you and will wait for you patiently until the end of time quite fucking literally. There is no avoiding me Joe it is absolutely inevitable that we reunite.

Joe Pain Is Not Personal

All the pain in my system that unwound with Joes behavior, There’s no denying the trauma of it just at a pure level of Feeling, even before I tell the story. It doesn’t feel personal. I’m Digesting how his relating feels to me. And now that I’m starting to come out the other side… I’m […]

Dear Joe, If only you knew how your behavior feels to me…

If Only You Knew the pain and suffering that I’m working myself through in continually re-experiencing you’re blocking of me without explanation. The torment that I said and did something horribly wrong that I can’t take back… I’m feeling feelings that are so bad I never even knew existed. All this suffering was not necessary, […]

I wasn’t clear what Gaslight meant

I wasn’t putting my attention on the conversation, I was way behind it an entirely subconscious basically. I don’t fully get what Gaslight means I was looking for a word that meant you weren’t listening to me. After the fact I talk to people and looked it up and of course you were not gaslighting […]

Why did I feel so connected to you when you left me?

I still don’t fully get what’s happening or why, but I must say that when you broke up with me for the first couple weeks I had the most epic expansion of Falling in Love, insights into new dreams, and epic connection to source that felt better than any sex imaginable. And it was through […]

Dear Joe, Was our relationship entirely delusional?

Was my relationship with you entirely my own delusion,? Was the source romance creative partnership life partner not the reality but I was imagining it to be? Was it ever a potential or ever the case? Or was it all just a delusion?Or was it a shared reality that wasn’t being lived up to? Was […]

Transforming the Joe wound into Epic Desire

I am experiencing occasional Joe wounds that are immediately being transformed into Epic desire. It is clear to me that the essence of him stepping away opened up a tremendous desire for a new partner epic connections.. and I have trained myself to recognize this desire every time I feel the wound and it immediately […]

The Perfection of Joe

My mind and my heart is blown. I’m sitting here lucidly awake in the dream of my higher self. It’s never felt so unreal/ surreal. It jsut gets more epic. Immediately after our keta call, like it started clicking… every last perception that hurt about Joe, sucked up healed in the light of our keta […]

Dear Joe, Life is short

Dear Joe, Life is short. Why not have fun expanding the universe together? Love forgive and expand? I want to expand with you for life.