It is so amazing to get reflections from all the diverse perspectives in the Keta. Steven was describing my patterns, and day today matter of fact, to a tee. It was the freakiest thing how spot on it was. One can break through that much faster with access to a group field like this.

He was saying I mentally masterbate too much. If only he knew how true that was… In more ways than just mentally.

That the point is to let go and embody the truth. And so I should stop writing right here and let go. Yes.
And…

I still desire systems and logic decision trees and structures to let go into. And then I will decide whether to go left or right from the letting go.
To allow my mind to address all the little pieces of differentiation and string them together for most harmony.

To use mind and feeling together.
Allow it all and better fine tune it from the letting go. And then let the systems and thinking go and embody.

Do you think I’m still mentally masterbating? It’s so fun though! I think understanding is a critical part of application. Well duh. Contemplating and writing is my form of getting to the essence of the understanding.

And then I let it go and embody.

Relax your seeking for the answer Claire. Let go and relax a bit more.

Woah.. I think my Overfantasy is a form of masterbation too. Also sometimes my blog writing! Masterbation as in overly useless… Although technically actually speaking I would argue Masterbation is necessary not useless. But for the sake of the metaphor it means to say real sex is better (OK I admit is true) . So same goes for my fantasy or my blog writing or all my overthinking. Reality is better.