CONVICTION IS GOING BEHIND. You find it before everything. Go before your doubts. Without negating or rejecting, Drop it all completely, don’t even reason with it. Go before and there is purity that is the case no matter what, rich in self affirming conviction that can’t be shaken or disputed, full of peace and joy. The point is this formlessness. Don’t miss this. It is the formlessness. If you Find yourself giving power To the form you are missing the real point: the formless eternal essence that you see you have now regardless of forms, and unshaken by doubt.
I can indulge in story and description, and put reality outside of myself. Or I can surrender that into the doubtless perfect essence and go directly to reality and all I desire before I even know the form it will take. I Merge until all that’s left is a vast expansive nothing and my pure blissful beautiful will. Moment by moment it is! It is utterly perfectly the case, and I align. Continually I die to everything I think I know, I think is wrong, the plans I had, all my guilt and worries timelines and consequences, and I fall deep into infinite love. And it is a self affirming and compounding. The more I surrender, the more I fall into love, and the more I devote and surrender to this love, which drop me even deeper to a new depth of infinite love, compounding devotion and commitment to surrender all over again, and on it goes as I die all the way to absolute perfection.
And it’s a practice, Moment to moment, of recognizing the essence and Seeing through the perceptions and aligning to the truth recognized. It is subtle! If you Are gentle you will find it. Do not compensate! It Is always here have faith!
You see I am not necessarily deciding my path with my mind, as if I Don’t know where I’m going and I’ve never been there before. I am surrendering to and arriving at the destination now, and then choosing/deciding my path in reflection of that destination already arrived.