The conversation with you was nearly entirely subconscious, I barely even knew what you were saying or what I was saying. I was hanging out Beyond it barely noticing it happening. The conversation was somewhere in the foreground but I was way beyond. That’s why I was so confused as to what happened… When you hung up and never answered my calls. Then all the triggers started ripping through me and I was even more confused not understanding what was going on. heart-wrenching heartbreak anger and pain day after day and with each time leaning into the pain fully feeling it, i felt a new level of heartbreak for you I didn’t understand. But then I noticed that as I kept leaning into it it would unlock new layers of potential that I thought were in you… but turns out are in me. And the falling in love went deeper.
