I see where im getting weak/confused when my alignment leads me to suboptimal experience… And then I doubt myself and fall victim to confusion. But I relaize that actually so much insight comes from suboptimal experience, and it’s actually leading me to clarify my desire. All I must do, is hold my alignment even when it sucks. Remember I am the source, not a victim, and take intitiave accordingly.
I realized I can actually take the responsibility to clarify experience and desire for myself. And can see where I’m falling victim and waiting for God to tell me what to do, haha so to speak. Feeling so lost and confused when actually I am the one that can take initiative to give myself insight.
now it feels more like I’m at the driver seat… And it’s my responsibility to clarify myself and choose accordingly. That I do have that capacity.
And include outside perspectives too where safe and relevant to refine even more.
For example I realize my confusing tendency to stay with different people is an unclarified desire for a quality romantic partnership. As soon as I am clear this is what I want, my intuitive actions makes sense and I can look at the suboptimal experience for more insight into what I do want. How the desired relationship looks and feels like. What I do and don’t want.
And I feel heck yes I want to get out of my parents home. Heck yes I want a romantic partner to stay with. And yes I desire to build up more work for the month because that too makes me feel grounded and clear. And pays for everything.
That I can stay at my parents as a transition, and experiment with staying elsewhere to continue to clarify my desire for quality partnership (actually I read that in my gene keys) .
and then I realize wow i have many good options even some I hadn’t considered, plus other people I still haven’t followed up with. So the point is to be clear what I want, and now engage these people accordingly to see how it may or may not fit.
Reach out for more shoots because work helps me feel grounded.
Maybe a new city? New community? Down the road? But as soon as I try to figure out too far ahead I get confused and frustrated again as to the how. So I just focus on this moment and the next best steps. Plan for trips to feel out different places.
Stay confident and clear, and take initiative to clarify myself and act accordingly. And not to crumble at confusing experience, but to take the initiative to clarify it myself.
One step at a time.
So yes. I can clarify my desire and then take action on it. Yes I can clarify my experience so ti’s smooth. No I am not a victim and it is all as I desire. Clarify it as such