I am overwhelmed with infinite love and epicness. Overwhelming beauty. Overwhelming mindfuck. Utter and complete awe. And it just gets more and more perfect and amazing. I don’t know how else to express it in words except that I do try expressing it in words but also I feel the overwhelming desires of how to express it… Forms it wants to take… Projects and endeavors and dances. And how bad I crave it to be seen and shared… So so so so so unbearably bad do I desire for all this glory to be witnessed and felt and experienced by all. I feel these desires are nearly unbearable except that I rest in their bliss because I know they are already done and in process. The only way that I can be patient is realizing they are not only possible they are done and they are already what I am. Which feeds back into a loop of utter ecstacy and peace I can’t even convey besides I know that I am all that is and this is nothing less than compeltely and utterly all me. And when I realize that being it is actually the full extent… Their is no obligation to share… I feel even more peace and completeness.
And that behind that simple subtle conviction of epic fucking truth… Before all experience… In that subtle impulse and guidance of conviction of perfection…
It literally is before experience … And you can move from that. And it will lead unto all you desire with perfection and no guilt. And you can think less now. And in that conviction I have no doubt that every single experince of infinity I could ever desire of any moment exists within that subtle subtle instinctual impulse of the conviction of the truth. I know it. Even before I feel it I know it. Even before I experience it I know it. It is already done. The truth is literally already complete and I have a direct connection to it in each moment.
Even in the shitty expeinces. I can begin to trust they are purposeful to what I want.
Because you can go beyond all experience itself, especially the little compartments of reistance and confusion…and rest back deeper and deeper into more all inclusive bigger picture realizations of yourself as whole complete indestructible untouchable super sexy and essentially fucking awesome.
All I am ever becoming is a state of being that already exists. I am only ever uncovering what I already am. Therefore it can never be lost. Only discovered and infinitely integrated and embodied. And it’s fucking incredible.