I just realized a nuance of desire that’s been throwing me off balance. When the nuance is just right, it feels amazing. It’s painful when it’s too much, and ineffective when too little:
It’s the “not there yet” tinge/flavor. When it’s overemphasized, it’s painful. When it’s less so, I feel a sort of complacency that keeps me still and stagnant.
But in just the right balance, its a sweet yummy ” I am that” , with just a little bit of “and there’s more to come” … to keep me leaning on the edge of my seat.
It was feeling bad because it was too much “not there yet” , but when it’s just enough it’s more like “I am already there AND there’s more to come” it feels incredible.
It’s tantalizing, sexy as hell, I can barely stand how awe inspiring, delicious, sustainably orgasmic it feels from head toe. I just want more. And it’s already mine and what I am. And I want more. And Im so satisfied it’s already done…