Practice resting before expeirnce, not minding experince. The ups and the downs, it’s all simply energy, textures and patterns. See that I am before it consisntely for greater stability/awakening. I don’t need experince as much as I think I do. It’s not as big of a deal as I was making it, rather it was a fixation on experience that made it a bigger deal than it actually was. I am not what I percieve.
See I can see the vision as I rest before, and see the end, and this is what lifts me out of the cracks. Practice super power of seeing whole picture and where I want to go/what I want from here.
Practice not a big dealness. Relax any desperate seeking.